Happy Valentines Day

To all of you reading - I wish you a happy Valentines day..Or if you are "single" a Happy Single Awareness Day.
It will go unnoticed here- Just as our anniversary did a few days ago. Not that I didnt make a little bit of effort to tell Bob Happy Anniversary..
When he got up I said, "Happy Anniversary Bob".. and he said... "No-- thats okay"... I'm not sure what he thought I said.. But that was my attempt.. :) and my failure.. sometimes it's better to just ignore the occasions that pop up.. for my own sake..

Happy New Year

New years is my favorite day of the year. Its like being handed a fresh new tablet and a box of colored pencils. A chance to start fresh and fill the pages with new and beautiful ideas and plans and dreams.
 I am really struggling to even "like"  it this year. I know many changes are on the horizon  for Bob and I this year and neither of us have ever liked "change" that much.
Bob's rapid decent into the the dark world of Dementia has left me reeling and Bob in a permanent state of confusion.
I resolve to make his days a little happier if possible and try to dig a little deeper and find some added patience and humor.
A New year is a blank book,
My best wishes for you to convert it
To a beautiful story
Happy New Year to you all!

Spirit

I am having such a hard time finding my Holiday Spirit this year. Maybe its because I cant get out to do my normal activities or shopping. Maybe its because I'm just  physically and mentally  exhausted. Maybe it's because my heart is heavy from having to make decisions I dont want to make.
  I made an attempt to get things started today.  I moved the book shelves to the hall alcove to make room for the tree. My son dug the decorations out for me.  That's as far as I got.
 Tonight I bundled Bob up after Dark and decided to walk around the neighborhood to see some of the lights the neighbors have put up. The whole time Bob just really wanted to go home to his chair.
 I'll Look for my spirit again tomorrow..
Alzheimers/Dementia causes such a feeling of loneliness. It seems compounded during the holidays.
I did get my first Christmas Card of the season ... It was from the Cable Company.. wishing Me ..." Dear Valued Customer" a Very Happy Holiday Season.  LOL.

Happy Father's Day

  The last few days I have been really busy with gardening and canning. I got Rhubarb Jam made. And a Rhubarb Pie baked. Today I made salsa and got 8 jars of that canned up too.
 Although Bob has seemed to be doing okay with all that time to himself I can tell he is getting restless. I said. " Well- Tomorrow is Father's Day Bob. What would you like to do?
 Bob said " You are not my father so I am not buying you a gift"
 Okee dokee then-
Now that we have that settled.. I Guess we'll just have a little barbecue...with NO presents...LOL.
Happy Fathers Day to all you Dad's out there!

Happy Valentines Day

This morning as I was giving Bob his breakfast I gave him a big hug and said " Happy Valentines Day".
He said "This day  is Valentines day?" I said "Yes it is - Happy Valentines Day."
He said-- "Well there's nothing wrong with that"

Happy New Year

This morning we went to the store and picked up a few odds and ends that were needed. Bob looked around at some of the decorations and tables set up with New Years Eve type decorations.
He said "whats this?"
I said "Tonight is New Years Eve"-- then not being sure he was understanding I asked "Do You remember what New years eve is?"  He said
"Its one of those nights you do one of those party things".
LOL- I dont really remember the last time he or I actually went to "one of those party things".
I imagine our evening will be much like all of our other evenings- Bob will go to bed at 9:00 or so--Chances are I will still be up beading or working on a design so I will "celebrate" the entry of 2014 alone-- This does not bother me- Really-- Just the thought of trying to "party" seems laughable anymore- But I would like to wish everyone a Very Happy New Year- I hope we all have a Fabulous 2014- or at least as good as it can be! Be Safe and Sane tonight if you are headed to " One of those party things".

Lighting the Way

Last night bob and I bundled up and walked around the neighborhood looking at Christmas Lights. After several house he said
"We should go home and put the tree up"
Me- "It is up babe- In the living room."
Him--" It is?"
Me- "Yes- we did that last week."
Him- Oh- I didnt know that. Maybe we had better start shopping.
( I guess he didnt notice all the packages either)
Me-" Got it covered Hon but if you want to go I'll take you. Where do you want to go?"
Him- "Safeway"
(Guess we'll hand out some groceries this year--LOL-- everyone needs those anyway--right?)

Holiday Confusion

I put the tree up. I set the Christmas village up. Bob gets confused so easily these days that I figured I should keep the decorations to a minimum.

I was right- Just having those two things set up is causing problems. He walks around looking for what was where the tree is now-- I show him-- and 5 minutes later he is looking again.

Last night I was in the basement taking care of a load of laundry. I came up and he was unwrapping a gift I had gotten for  grandson Carrson
. I said-- What are you doing?--
 He said- "seeing what we got"--
Me-That one is for Carrson..
He said-- Thank god because I didnt want a train.

OY!
Back to wrapping  rewrapping-- Note to self-- Keep presents hidden till Christmas.